Wednesday, 22 August 2012

it finally happened...



those of you who have followed my blog for a while will remember last year when i wrote this post. i'd really hit a low point and had no way of dealing with the feelings of disappointment, fear and loneliness so i shared it with all of you. now a year on i come to you with the news i should have had then...

I'M GOING TO UNIVERSITY!

for anyone who doesn't know, last year i failed to make the grade and decided to retake a year of sixth form. it was truly one of the hardest decisions of my life. i know that sounds pathetic but my dependence on my friends left me feeling truly lost without them in a place that i'd only know with them. so i spent the year keeping my head down, working my arse off and trying my best to fit in amongst the swarms of new people and i can safely say to you it was the best decision i ever made.

i'm now leaving secondary school with grades better than i could have ever hoped for, a place at a university i could have only dreamed of getting into last year and one of the best groups of friends i could have only imagined having. i truly am the poster girl for 'sometimes a second chance is all you need.'

reading back that post it's strange to see how different my mentality is only a year ago. i've definitely emerged from it stronger than i ever imagined i could be. things don't effect me now like they used to. when people say horrible things about me i stand strong. when i make mistakes i can put my hands up, accept it and apologise. when i go into a room full of new people, yes i'm scared, but now i know how to deal with it and move past that. i'm truly a changed person, and most definitely for the better. i still have my low days but now i know how to hide them and now i can finally say i am happy being me. and what a nice feeling that is.

it really does make me wonder where i would be now if i had got in to university last year. all of the experiences i would have missed out on at school. all the friends i would have never made. would i be the person i am today? or would my life have taken a completely different direction? who knows? but the one thing i do know is that retaking my year at school was the best thing i could have possibly done and i wouldn't change it for the world.

so to those of you panicking because you didn't make your grades or perhaps didn't get into your top university. stop and breathe. it sucks. it really does. but it gets better. everything happens for a reason and you need to remember that. take some time to truly think about what you are going to do and approach it with all of the enthusiasm and determination you can muster. everything will be okay. take it from some whose been there.

and to those of you who said to me last year 'you're going to be okay.' you were right. and i wish i'd listened to you sooner. it would have saved me a hell of a lot of tears.


10 comments:

  1. I'm so glad to hear that, and really happy for you that you're off to uni this year. I wish I'd not gone at 18, my brother worked for a year before he went and now, in hindsight, I realise that he was far more mature and ready for it than I was. The experiences that you've had this year will stand you in such good stead for your first year at uni which can be a difficult time because things are so new and different. Have an amazing time in Loughborough hun xx

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  2. i love you rosie :) best friends forever. and i am going to visit you allllllll the time. like every other weekend xxx

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  3. Congratulations, you must be so happy! I'm just about to start my second year at Uni, and I can say my first year was probably the best year of my life. You were right to wait, now you'll have a fantastic year :) I didn't get into my first choice Uni, and to begin with I was petrified that I was going to hate my insurance choice, that I'd hate the course and I wouldn't fit in, but I did and the course was fantastic - better than the course I would have taken at my Firm choice. Have fun, it'll be amazing!! x
    Sirens and Bells

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  4. wow, congratulations! it's so nice to hear that somebody who was so disappointed - I remember reading that post - is now so happy! sometimes you need to go through the shit times to realise what's for the best. you'll have a ball at uni - i'm just going into my second year and can't wait to get back!

    x
    rococ0.blogspot.com

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  5. So so proud of you Rosie, you completely deserve it all <3

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